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Why not quit?

a-full-inboxFive days! It’s taken me five days to resolve the latest problem with my Outlook email – a problem that four Geek Squad techs spent over eight hours trying, unsuccessfully, to fix!

Somehow my Outlook folders got corrupted and scrambled. The folder properties showed they contained emails, but they would not open. And, again, the same as last May, the folders that were affected (or infected?) were critically important conference folders.

More times than I can count I’ve told Father, “I can’t. I CAN’T do this!” The deadly Ds of doubt, discouragement, and yes, even despair have almost defeated me. But I’ve not told Father “I won’t.” And thanks to the prayers of many and the Facebook friend who told me about “Kernel for Outlook PST Repair” I’m finally able to retrieve the emails I need to complete the website and brochure for the May 15-18 Colorado Christian Writers Conference and finish planning the August 8-10 Greater Philly Christian Writers Conference.

I admit there were times I asked myself, “Why? Why go through all this stress? Why not quit?” know Father has called me to direct the Colorado and Greater Philly Christian Writers Conference. He hasn’t promised it would be easy or that I would be immune from the evil one’s efforts to defeat me. But He has promised to be with me and  has again confirmed that He is using the conferences in Ephesians 3:20 ways.

I am so encouraged by Eric Sprinkle’s testimony below.

OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERAWhile reading updates on all the mayhem in Marlene’s life these last few months, I couldn’t help but wonder, “What if the CCWC (Colorado Christian Writers Conference) went away? What if it had never even been around these last five years?”

It didn’t take long to reflect on the impact Marlene’s conference has had on my own personal publishing career lately.

As an overwhelmed first-timer back in 2013, I clearly remember clumsily trying to find conference rooms, manage armloads of notes, chat with people over lunch, and keep up with numerous sessions all ranging from editing tips, improving your writing, and the potential growth of something called IndiPub.

Fast forward to 2018 where I was able to serve on Faculty, facilitate training sessions, field hundreds of IndiPub questions, and finally end the year with my name listed on two books…as Author.

So amazing.

And where did I even begin to learn all the ins-and-outs of the Indi Publishing process? At CCWC.

  • Where did I find the typesetter for my projects? At CCWC.
  • Where did I find our book’s cover artist? He’s a good friend…of a guy we met at CCWC.
  • My branding manager? He was my roommate three years ago at the conference.
  • Where did I meet my Editor? Okay, she’s a member of my small group Bible study, but where did I meet my brilliant co-author? Yup, only just the year before, at Marlene’s CCWC in Estes Park, Colorado.

I can hardly believe all that God has done in my life, and in my writing, since that first conference five years ago, but I do know that oh, so much of it has been a direct result of the time, the teaching, and the people attending the Colorado Christian Writers Conference these last few years.

How has God used these very same things in your life recently? How could he impact you through the people and training you’d experience by attending this year?

My name’s Eric Sprinkle, author of some crazy fun devotionals called Adventure Devos, and Adventure Devos: Women’s Edition, and I can’t imagine either one of these books being a realty, except for our gracious Lord God using an amazing writers conference, located in the heart of the Colorado wilderness.

God is speaking, and the mountains are calling. I look forward to seeing all of you at this year’s CCWC in May!

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Punxsutawney Phil did NOT see his shadow yesterday morning. Good news! Spring is on the way. Well, it is, but more than likely not as quickly as we hope or Punxsutawney Phil predicts. Sadly, he doesn’t have a strong track record of being accurate.

Christians called to “Write His Answer” also are likely to have to wait far longer than we would like for the acceptance of our manuscripts and to see our book(s) in print. More often than not we will receive the dreaded rejection slip or no response at all.

But stop and consider what’s most important. Is it getting our name in print, especially on the cover of a book, or the journey of how we get there? Are our lives, not just our words, bearing fruit?

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Bearing Fruit

A Bible Study Based on John 15:1-5; Colossians 2:7; Galatians 5:22-23; Jeremiah 17:7-8

Let us fix our eyes on Jesus . . .
Hebrews 12:2 NIV

 

LOVE – He loved me and gave himself for me (Gal. 2:20 NIV).

  • Do I love my readers?
  • Is love my motivating force?
  • How much of myself do I give them?
  • What about loving my editors, especially the ones who reject my manuscript?
  • Loving people who make demands on my time, who take me from my work?

JOYFor the joy set before him [Jesus] endured the cross (Heb. 12:2 NIV).

  • Is my joy dependent on acceptances, praise, success?
  • Do I rejoice in taking up my cross (Mk. 8:34-35), or look for easier ways to serve the Lord?

PEACE –  Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you” (Jn. 14:27 NIV).
We never see Jesus uptight even when demands on him were so great that “he couldn’t even find time to eat” (Mk. 3:20 TLB). See also Colossians 3:15.

  • Do I have his peace when I’m interrupted?
  • When I’m facing a deadline or blank computer screen?
  • When doors do not open for my work?

PATIENCEThink about his patience as sinful men did such terrible things to him (Heb. 12:3 TLB); his patience on the night he was betrayed when even his disciples  did not yet understand who he was (see Jn. 14:4-11).

  • Am I learning to wait patiently on the Lord?
  • How patient am I with editors, family members, myself?

KINDNESSBecause of his kindness you have been saved (Eph. 2:8 TLB).

  • Do people (editors, family, friends) see Christ in me?
  • Am I gracious?

GOODNESSHe went around doing good  (Acts 10:38 TLB).
Greek – agathos describes that which “being good in its character . . . is beneficial in its effect.”*

  • Is my writing benefiting my readers?
  • How can I “do good” with my writing?

FAITHFULNESS – He has enriched us, gifted us, strengthened us, called us, and is faithful (see 1 Cor. 1:5-9).

  • Am I being faithful to him?
  • Am I using the gifts he has given me?

GENTLENESSI am gentle and humble” (Mt. 11:29 TLB).
Greek – meekness, prautes: closely linked with humility, a fruit of power not weakness,not fighting against God, the opposite of self-assertiveness and self-interest.*

  • Have I argued with the Lord lately?
  • Am I on an ego trip?

SELF CONTROL – Jesus responded. He did not react. He was always in control of his feelings, words, actions (see Mk. 3).

  • How much self-control did I exercise the last time something or someone irritated me?
  • What about my self-discipline?
  • Do I daily relinquish control of my life to the Lord?

*From Vine’s Expository Dictionary of New Testament Words.

Examine and test and evaluate your own selves
to see whether you are holding to your faith
and showing the proper fruits of it.

2 Corinthians 13:5 AMP

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Online registration is open for the Colorado conference
http://colorado.writehisanswer.com

About half of the faculty is in place for the Philly conference
Registration will open April 1
http://philadelphia.writehisanswer.com

 

Commit everything you do
to the Lord.
Trust him to help you do it,
and he will.
Psalm 37:5 (TLB)

You did, You do, and You will! Thank You, Father.

 

When I began planning the May 15-18 Colorado Christian Writers Conference just four weeks ago,  the to-do list seemed insurmountable. Even though it’s my 23rd year directing, it doesn’t get any easier. Because my files got scrambled in the transition to a new laptop last spring and emails in my conference folders disappeared, the task of rebuilding the spreadsheet of prospective faculty was daunting. It now has over 470 names and is still growing!

Bill MyersIt would be so much easier just to invite last year’s faculty to return. Some do because they also serve in needed staff positions and they have become like family. But I know I need to add new faces and I have. This year 25 of our 50 faculty members are new to CCWC or were not with us last year or for a number of years like keynoter Bill Myers who is also teaching the continuing session, “Fiction Writing: Keys for Unforgettable Storytelling.” Beatrice Bruno, the Drill Sergeant for Life, is a new face. She made a huge beatrice brunoimpact at the Writers on the Rock Conference. Beatrice is also giving a keynote plus teaching an exciting 3-hour learning lab on Wednesday, “Writer, Thou Art Loosed!”

My to-do list is still overwhelming. I haven’t started on our 16-page brochure, and there’s tons of work to be done on the website. You will find descriptions of 7 of our 8 continuing sessions, 3 of our 4 clinics, and the names of the 50 agents, editors, authors, and other professionals on faculty. Still to come are their photos and bios plus descriptions of  our 5 keynotes, 42 workshops, Saturday’s Teens Write, and Wednesday’s learning labs and early bird workshops. Whew! I’m grateful I type well over 100 wpm.

Online registration opens at 9:00 pm tonight, February 1. The first 50 to register for Thursday, Friday, and Saturday will receive an additional free 15-minute appointment – a total of SIX!

Please pray about joining us on the mountain May 15-18 for what I know will be a life-changing conference.

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P.S. Be among the first ten to register and I’ll send you a free copy of my latest book, #MyFamilyToo! – How Our Family Coped with Childhood Sexual Abuse. It’s the story of  God’s faithfulness during the five years we sought to help my half sister overcome her father’s sexual abuse. (She came to live with us when she was not quite fourteen and thought she was pregnant with her father’s child.) #MyFamilyToo! is also our testimony of how God helped us to Live His Answer in the midst of other challenges that could have destroyed our faith. (Available on Amazon or through my website.)

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Question Mark Key Shows Doubt And Help

Years ago, I sold a packet of “Ministry and Marketing” resources for Christian writers. One side of the twin pocket folder had Bible studies as well as articles from my column in The Christian Writer that later were compiled into my book, Write His Answer – A Bible Study for Christian Writers(It’s now in its third edition and has been in print for 28 years!) The other side had how-to articles on writing and, yes, on selling our writing. My “Market Analysis Charts” helped many get their work in print.

I’m certain my kids and husband were happy when I stopped selling the packet and they no longer had the job of collating the 50-plus pages and pasting on the front and back cover.

Much has changed since I started writing for publication in 1972 after our second child was born. Wannabe writers and those already published now are able to access a huge amount of how-to information on the Internet. Writers’ conferences, seminars, podcasts, webinars, and coaches provide exciting opportunities to become better wordsmiths and marketers. And, of course, there are more how-to books than any of us will ever have time to read.

But sadly, the tension between ministry and marketing still exists. In fact, I think it’s grown more intense. Yes, we want to get the message we believe God has entrusted to us into print and into the hands of readers, but all too easily we can get caught up in doing things the world’s way.  We can spend lots of dollars and hours on building our “platform” and push God into a corner of our busy lives. In the process, it can become all about us and not about Him.

For the past 35 years as the director of the Greater Philly Christian Writers Conference and 22 years as the director of the Colorado Christian Writers Conference I have sought to find the balance God wants us to have between ministry and marketing. Of course, I offer workshops to help writers find a publisher for their manuscripts and readers for their books. But hopefully our “Write His Answer” theme keeps the focus clearly on the Lord and on writing as a ministry to point readers to Him and not to ourselves.

Father, please help me and Your people, Your scribes, to seek You and Your plans for our writing. Give us wisdom to know what learning and platform-building opportunities You want us to invest in. Help us to be realistic and not to focus on what we hope to gain but rather on what You would have us give.

How do you deal with the tension between ministry and marketing?

Moose in area RS from Eric Sprinkle

Faith is the confidence that what we hope for
will actually happen;
it gives us assurance about things we cannot see.
Hebrews 11:1 NLT

This is my 23rd year directing the Colorado Christian Writers Conference at the YMCA of the Rockies, Estes Park Center. Each year after the conference I spend hours in Rocky Mountain National Park hoping to see a moose. It hasn’t happened yet, but I haven’t given up hoping. Maybe this year!

But I do have faith and I am confident that God will again meet us on the mountain at the May 15-18 conference. We will see Him in the magnificence of His creation. He will speak to us through the editors, agents, and authors He is calling to serve on faculty and through new and renewed friendships with others who desire to “write His answer.”

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Five of our eight continuing sessions (click here) are confirmed along with about half (presently 28) faculty members. Visit http://colorado.writehisanswer.com frequently for updates and save May 15-18 for CCWC 2019 – a conference that will change your life!

I’ve been to many “Christian” Writers Conferences around the country. None have helped build my faith, provided clear direction, strengthened my convictions, and encouraged me to write Jesus’ messages more than CCWC. For the record, I’ve attended CCWC 13 years in a row. I would not miss it. – Charles J. Patricoff

Jesus Chose to Come!

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When the time came, he set aside the privileges of deity and took on the status of a slave, became human! Having become human, he stayed human. It was an incredibly humbling process. He didn’t claim special privileges. Instead, he lived a selfless, obedient life and then died a selfless, obedient death—and the worst kind of death at that: a crucifixion. ~ Philippians 2:7-8 MSG

 

You chose to come
even though You knew
You’d be born in a smelly stable
and forced to flee to Egypt.

Returning home to Nazareth,
You knew people still whispered
that You had been conceived
before your mother and father married.

“Can anything good come from Nazareth?”
people asked as You began Your ministry.
Even though huge crowds followed You
You knew their hearts were fickle.

Of the twelve men who were closest to You
You knew one would betray You, another deny You.
All would flee when You were arrested,
and only John would watch you die on a cross.

Yes, You knew it would not be easy.
You knew Satan would taunt You–
would tell You we are not worth
the pain You’d endure.
But You love us so much
You chose to come!

Marlene Bagnull, Christmas 2018

 

This is how much God loved the world:
He gave his Son, his one and only Son. And this is why:
so that no one need be destroyed;
by believing in him, anyone can have a whole and lasting life.
God didn’t go to all the trouble of sending his Son
merely to point an accusing finger,
telling the world how bad it was.
He came to help, to put the world right again.  
John 3:16-17 MSG

If God didn’t hesitate to put everything on the line for us, embracing our condition and exposing himself to the worst by sending his own Son, is there anything else he wouldn’t gladly and freely do for us? ~ Romans 8:32 MSG

Answers to Prayer

Pray much for others;
plead for God’s mercy upon them;
give thanks for all he is going to do for them.
1  Timothy 2:1 (TLB)

Thank You, Father, for everyone who has been praying for Paul and for how You are restoring his health. I am so, so grateful.

Yesterday, Paul saw Dr. Tony, the oncologist. When Paul was in the hospital the end of October Dr. Tony told us he thought the white spots would resolve along with the blood clots. An oncologist he works with and a lung doctor disagreed. Thank you so much for your prayers that helped me get through the last six weeks. I felt your prayers and so appreciated the encouragement I received through countless Facebook comments and more than 1,000 emails. And I am praising God that Dr. Tony was right. The blood clots and spots are gone. There is NO cancer!

Last night Paul saw the ortho doc who continues to be amazed with the progress Paul is making. Although it will take 4-6 months for complete recovery and another 2 months before Paul can drive, the doc said Paul no longer needs to see him.

Today Paul saw the GI doctor for his tummy problems and weight loss that has had me so concerned. I am confident that this doctor is going to find the needed answers. He has scheduled Paul for an endoscopy December 26. If the blood test Dr. Tony ordered shows Paul no longer needs to be on the blood thinner, the GI doctor will also stretch Paul’s Schatzki Ring that he thinks may be a big part of  the problems Paul is having. I don’t think there’s going to be a quick fix, but I am confident that Father is going to use this doctor. And again, I am praising God that the CT scan of Paul’s tummy and pelvis showed no evidence of cancer.

Father’s hand in all this is so evident. Monday evening I called the salon where I get my hair done. The stylist I had about two months ago (the new manager) is pretty much booked through the end of the year but was available Monday night. She’s a Christian and was very reassuring when I saw her the first time when Paul was in rehab. To my amazement, I learned as she colored my hair Monday night (no more grey – temporarily) that the GI doctor Paul saw today is her doctor. She’s been with him seven years and says he is the best. Her encouragement and hug Monday night helped me get through the last two days.

But still, the waiting has been so hard! I needed to re-read the article I wrote over 30 years ago that was originally published in Decision. Forgive me, Father, for not trusting You more as I waited. Thank You for Your patience, Your unfailing love, and the gift of friends.

How Much Longer Lord

 

 

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Lift Up Your Eyes and See

To the tune: O Little Town of Bethlehem

All those beneath life’s crushing load
Lift up your eyes and see
The Son of God has come to earth
His words will set you free
From doubt and fear and worry
Of what the future holds
Look up and put your trust in Him
His peace will fill your soul.

The baby born to Mary
The Word made flesh He came
That all who will believe in Him
Will never be the same
O’er evil He did triumph
When on the cross He hung
Our sin He took upon Himself
Salvation for us won.

So we can live in victory
And know His joy and peace
No matter what the headlines say
We only need to reach
To Him who holds the future
Our lives are in His hands
Rejoice, give thanks and praise His name
In near and distant lands.

Marlene Bagnull

Father, thank You for reminding me of these words I wrote eight years ago. Thank You that they are as true today as they were then.

Please help me give you my fears and worries as I wait for the results of the CT scan and Echo Paul will have tomorrow. I’ve been trying so hard to trust You these past nine weeks since Paul fell. And You have been healing his broken knee and elbow, but it’s those blood clots in his lungs and spots throughout his chest that have me feeling so anxious.

Dr. Tony, the oncologist who spent about half an hour with us when Paul was in the hospital the end of October, told us he thinks the spots will resolve along with the blood clots. But the oncologist he works with (the most arrogant doctor I’ve ever met) told me he does not agree. The lung doctor says they are “very suspicious.”  He thinks Paul has cancer and, if he does, that it’s advanced. The internist says “stage 4.” (Paul does not know he may be facing cancer.)

We see the cardiologist this Wednesday and Dr. Tony September 11. Oh Father, I’m not ready to face what I may learn these next two weeks. I’m trying to trust You and to believe Dr. Tony. But maybe there is something seriously wrong somewhere else? Please, Father, please place Your healing hand on Paul.

Since the accident Paul has not been eating much. His tummy pain has been getting worse. I’m only getting about 400-500 calories a day in him – mostly protein powder mixed into strawberry and chocolate milk. He’s lost more than 30 pounds since August 27. Update: I reached a nurse at the GI doctor’s office today. She got approval for a CT scan of Paul’s lower abdomen and pelvis and an appointment with the doc for a week from this Wednesday. (There was a cancellation.) Father is at work! Turns out Paul could not have gotten a CT scan of his chest tomorrow because he doesn’t have recent enough blood work or the contrast prep he needs to drink before the test. All a surprise to me but not to the Lord. They were able to reschedule Paul for both CT scans this Saturday.

Meanwhile, I’ve been working on #MyFamilyToo!  It’s been good to remember God’s faithfulness and Paul’s support during the five years my half-sister lived with us. I really believe Father can use this book to encourage many and not just those who have been sexually abused and family/friends who try to help. It’s about so much more. It is our testimony of how God helped us to “Live His Answer” in the midst of other challenges that could have destroyed our faith.

One of the more than a dozen endorsements I’ve received reads:

“Marlene Bagnull has written a powerful, yet vulnerable, account of what it means to trust God in the darkest moments. MyFamilyToo! is the story of a caregiver who relied on God for the equipping she needed. It’s also the story of forgiveness and healing in the life of a young girl who experienced sexual abuse. Each chapter ends with prompts to help readers apply biblical truth to their own situation, whatever that situation is.

“As Marlene notes, ‘There is no quick and simple cure for…any of life’s problems.’ Whether you carry the wounds of betrayal or you are caring for one who does, you will be encouraged to look to the One who is able to strengthen you minute by minute and day by day.”   Ava Pennington ~ Bible teacher and author

I plan to upload the book to KDP by the end of the week and have it available before Christmas through my website or Amazon. It will sell for $11.95 plus shipping. As I said in my last blog, I’m happy to give a copy to anyone who feels led to help us with the financial needs we’re facing right now. You can mail a check to 951 Anders Road, Lansdale, PA 19446 or use this link (https://paypal.me/MarlenePaulgift).

Please know we deeply appreciate your gifts and especially your prayers. And please pray for the May 15-18 Colorado and August 8-10 Philly conference. PTL I finally have a date for Philly. I must begin planning.

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Give thanksIt’s now been seven weeks and three days since our lives dramatically changed when my husband fell going into church September 30.  I’m thankful for the Lord’s healing power. The orthopedic doctor was surprised at the progress Paul has made when he saw him at his six-week check-up. He no longer needs the immobilizers for his broken knee cap and elbow, and he is able to walk with the walker.

Paul Oct 2018.jpegBecause of the risk of falling while he’s on a blood thinner, I keep reminding him that I need to be beside him when he goes anywhere. But sometimes he forgets or stubbornly decides he doesn’t need my help. That’s scary!

I’m concerned that Paul still is hardly eating anything. He has no appetite and every day has nausea and tummy pain. Until he’s off the blood thinner for the blood clots in his lungs there are no tests that can be done to find the answer.  He has now lost over 30 pounds since August 27.

The threat of a stoke because of the Afibs he had in the hospital continues to concern me. He is wearing a heart monitor for 21 days. An Echo and CT scan are scheduled for December 4. He will see the cardiologist Dec 5 and the oncologist Dec 11. I’m trying to trust the Lord and not worry. Please keep praying. Our 55th anniversary was ten days ago.

The medical bills are mounting up into the thousands plus the $2,000 I’ve already spent on durable medical equipment our insurance didn’t cover (I’m appealing), pull-ups, waterproof pads, bathroom grab bars, meds, and so much more. We’ve also had the added expense of needing to replace our washer and dryer plus unexpected (aren’t they always?) car repairs. We even had to replace a toilet that cracked and threatened to cause a flood until I finally figured out how to turn off the water to the house!

Financially things were already tight because I was only able to pay myself half of what I had hoped for directing this year’s conferences. I’d hate to calculate how much I earn an hour! The conferences are my ministry, but I do need income from them – now more than ever – to supplement our Social Security checks. The evil one is ridiculing me for “foolishly” giving in scholarships an amount almost equal to what I earned, but I promised the Lord 35 years ago that I would not turn people away because they can’t afford to come.

Father keeps nudging me to make our needs known. That’s hard for me. I’m far more comfortable being on the giving side. Friends have suggested a Go Fund page. Instead, if Father leads you to help us financially, I’d like to give you a copy of  #My Family Too. It will be available by mid-December. It’s an updated edition of the first book I wrote that was rejected 42 times over a five-year period before it was finally published in 1989. (See my February 13, 2015, post “Tempted to Give Up?”)

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Back in the 1980s editors I met at conferences affirmed it was well written, but they admitted they did not want to touch the topic of incest or publish personal experience stories. (It was long before memoirs became popular.) My sister, mother, and stepfather are now home with the Lord, so there is no longer a need to use a pen name. I am trusting now is the time for Father to use #My Family Too! in Ephesians 3:20 ways.

Whether or not you feel led to send a gift to help us financially (I will, of course, report as income the $15 cost, including shipping, of each book), please know that I appreciate your prayers, emails, and Facebook posts so much. Forgive me for not responding. It’s been impossible to keep up with being a full-time caregiver, and now I need to start planning next year’s conferences. Prayer is needed for the conferences, too. When Outlook crashed a week before I left for the Colorado conference in May, the emails “safely” stored in folders for 2019 prospective faculty and invites/acceptances were all deleted. Father, please help me connect with the people You are calling to serve on faculty next year.

P.S. * You can use this link to send a gift https://paypal.me/MarlenePaulgift or you can mail a check to 951 Anders Road, Lansdale, PA 19446.

My hubby is home!

Oh, how grateful and thankful I am
to the Lord because he is so good.
I will sing praise to the name of the Lord
who is above all lords.
Psalm 7:17 TLB

Paul in chair
Yes, I know his hand should not be down, but I didn’t want to wake him. There is so much to think about and do!

Thank You, Father, that Paul is home! And thank You for family that helped get him in the van and then the house. And for Laura who spent the night and helped me get him in bed.
 
She’s only 14, but I asked her last night “When did you grow up?” Much as I hate that Paul is going through all this, I think this will be an incredible learning experience for her since she is interested in a PT, OT, or PA career.
 
I confess to feeling really overwhelmed when Laura had to leave today for a party. For the first time I transferred Paul from the lift chair to the commode without someone for backup. And then I got him up again from his chair so I could put a gel pad that had just been delivered on his chair. (His bottom gets so sore from sitting.)
 
The home care nurse was here for an hour this morning. I’m very impressed with her. She’s knowledgable, thorough, and good at explaining medical terminology. And the PT who came several hours later is great. Both will continue to be the people who will work with us I trust for as long as needed. Father, please give us favor with the insurance.
 
For the first time I got someone from our insurance who was really helpful, supportive, and encouraging. She gave me needed info on his blood thinner that was a huge relief. Good RX priced a one month supply at over $400, but after today’s purchase (for one week) of $195, he will be only $5 away from meeting his $200 deductible. Then one month via mail order will be $47 or $98 for three months. She checked about reimbursement for the wheelchair since their suppliers didn’t have what we need, but sadly they will not reimburse anything not purchased in network. She agreed with me that “it’s not fair.” The same as the PA at the hospital and the cardiologist, she said “You’re doing a good job!”
 
I’ve created a spreadsheet for all the stuff I’ve got to be certain we do each day. Hopefully it won’t seem so overwhelming once we get into a routine.
 
Father, You are good. While you have not promised to save us from life’s challenges, You have promised to be with us in them. Thank You for Your faithfulness.
Yes, I know his hand should not be down, but I didn’t want to wake him. There is so much to think about and do!